Never again.

Never again.
Never again.
Never again.
Never again, would i be the girl crying out for you at the other end of the phone,
Neither would i ever try to change me.
Change me so that my picture can fit your frame.
I got so lost in it, so confused.
I fell so in-love.
Fell so hard for you that i smashed my face on the concrete when I landed.
Got up and looked in the mirror and I couldn't recognise the person staring back.
Never again.
I hope you're happy. I sincerely and honestly wish you are.
I care not enough about you to wish you dead. Your existence is as significant as a speck of dust.
All I had you took.
All I was, you changed.
All I did you ignored.
All my love, all my fighting, all my sacrifices all of it...
Gone.
None of it was worthy of your time.
This would happen,
Never again.
Thank you for hating me.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I even have greater gratitude to express, thank you from the bottom of my heart
For pretending to love me.
Thank you because;
Without you, I wouldn't be numb.
I wouldn't be immune to loving.
I wouldn't be filled with so much disregard for affection.
I wouldn't be sitting here in the dark expressing my gratitude.
Without you, I wouldn't know better.
For all that I did,
For all the ways I lost myself
For all the tears and, the burning sensation in my heart.
For all that I have felt....
I express gratitude. Now I know and realise..
Never again.
Never again.
Never again.